You Are Not Alone
I was sitting across the table from her. Her eyes were cast down. She tried to make eye contact, but then her eyes would quickly dart to the side. I didn’t stop attempting to make eye contact though; I knew God wanted her to know that she was seen, not by me but by Him.
I continued to share my story. There was such anguish on her face. I knew that there was a broken little girl inside of her. I also knew there were parts of my story that she was connecting too but I had no idea to what level.
Before we even began to talk I felt the Holy Spirit speak to me "just let her know she’s not alone."
As I finished telling her my story I said those 4 words the Holy Spirit gave me “you are not alone.” I could feel my eyes starting to burn as the tears were welling up, His Spirit had swept in and was resting on us so heavily it couldn’t be denied.
She scooted her chair back and said "I need to go to the restroom but I will be back, I want to share my story with you." During that time I prayed. I had just met her, this was our first meeting. A mutual friend had introduced us just the day before through a text message. All my friend had shared was that our stories were similar and it wasn’t by accident that I was in her town visiting for a conference.
Let me just say I wasn’t sure how much she would share and I was okay with that. I was just being obedient. I was being completely vulnerable and transparent because that is what God has asked of me. I shared every part of my brokenness with her. Now it was time for me to sit and listen.
As she began to share her story, it was so evident that this was not a coincidence, that this was a God ordained divine appointment. Tears flooded her eyes. I could see the shame on her face and hear the brokenness in her voice as she spoke. This beautiful women was hurting so deeply. My heart ached for her and I knew that Father God's heart ached even greater!
Once she finished sharing her story she allowed me to pray over her. Tears flooded my face, I couldn't hold them back. Tears streamed down her face as she apologized for sharing. The pain was real and it was deep. I assured her there was nothing to be sorry for! As she left she hugged me so tightly. In that moment it felt as if we had known each other forever.
I went back to my conference and then left the next day to return home. I had no idea what God was going to do or how he was going to orchestrate this new and unique friendship.
The great thing about technology these days is the ability to text or call any time day or night. I stepped into a spiritual leadership/mentor role. A role I’ve avoided and a role that I didn’t feel qualified for or equipped to step into…BUT GOD!
God reminded me that He had already equipped me and that as long as I was following His lead and listening to Him I had nothing to worry about because He was the one in control and one orchestrating this relationship.
For almost three weeks God had me speak truth and His word to her. He had me pray with and for her. At times He would say “don’t respond yet” or “don’t answer that call, yet.” That was hard. I wanted to be there for her but more than that I wanted God to be there for her. So I did as He said. I surrendered, listened and obeyed. All I did was listen to her and redirect her back to The Healer, The Comforter, The Father, The One I knew could hold her and heal her!
I got a text late one night, she was wanting me to call. So, I did as I had done the last three weeks I went to God and said “do I call her or are you holding her through this?” and with a very loud “yes." I obeyed and called her.
She explained to me that over a year ago she had said a prayer but that she had never made God the Lord of her life. She hadn’t ever fully surrendered and she realized she couldn’t do this alone! So hundreds of miles apart from each other we prayed together. She did it, she fully surrendered!
As we concluded our phone call, that brokenness I heard in her voice that first day and for the past three weeks…GONE! I could hear the change immediately, there was joy on the other end of the phone! YAY GOD!
The next morning she texted me “I woke up feeling so much better today. Walking towards freedom. Found the perfect shirt in my closet (a shirt that said Freedom on it) and have this song (Freedom Hymn) on repeat until memorized.” Her face was glowing! She went on to tell me that she didn’t want to get out of bed because she had such sweet sleep but that she’s trusting that God will bring more peaceful sleep in the days to come. She had been having horrific nightmares and was getting little to no sleep at night! The enemy was coming at her so strongly! But GOD!
She went on to go to a women’s conference that day and I got text throughout the weekend of how God was moving in her life, how He was speaking so clearly and how she was letting out the healing tears!
Friends, this is the power of the Holy Spirit!
We have a choice. If we are going to have pain in our life then we can choose. Damaging and destructive pain or healing pain!
I will leave you with this…
And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony
God has called us to disciple and share His word. That’s all I did! The solution is easy. I overcame my past by His blood, I shared my testimony and a young woman was added to the kingdom last week!
Just be obedient!